Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Creative license

I get to do whatever I want, be whoever I want to be and all of that possibility is up to me.  How cool is that?

At 47, I realize that the gift of every day is the best gift I have.  Some days are better than others.  Some days bring more clarity, better moods, less anxiety and more will for living.  Other days are darker, more physically painful (and that is a mood killer for me) and are tougher.  I do my best to fight through each one and realize that I am fortunate enough to have a new one awaiting.

Life is what you do with it.  Always learn, always create and always be.

Monday, April 30, 2012

Rewriting my story ...

There is a part of my personal history that used to occupy this domain - msplaques.  It was filled with a journey that mostly involved health issues related to several autoimmune disorders that I seemed to have inherited from time as a Soldier in the US Army.  Life is different now.  I'd like to think that those former accounts are behind me, erased from memory (and the Internet) and that I get the chance to start fresh.

I like that ... that's more like me.

In 2001 I began exhibiting symptoms of Multiple Sclerosis.  In 2002 I was diagnosed with Relapsing-Remitting MS and by 2004 I was retired from a fulfilling and lucrative career with GE Global Research.  I loved life, I lived it hard and strong.   I loved life then, and I love life now.

This blog is named the same "msplaques" as the one I started in 2006-2007 ... the same blog that was filled with posts about my health journey (surgeries, procedures, relapses, medications, videos, etc).  It was cathartic for me and I know that there were others that identified with my journey.  My journey became their journey too.

I'd like to think that I am in the process of "rewriting" and creating life from a different perspective.  I no longer view myself as chronically ill ... but more as chronically living.  Life is so much better this way.   So, in a huge sense I am rewriting my history and my future.  No matter what happens on a day to day basis, life will be what I make of it.

Instead of a huge focus on the autoimmune destruction that takes place when the body turns on itself, I want to change my focus to living and the creative process.    A new way of catharsis and an experiment.   I've learned a lot over the past 10 years.  I've learned that many of the limits that I place upon myself are just self-imposed limitations and that the spirit and body had a tremendous capacity to heal.

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